B R E A T H E
For this week, I had a very hectic and unbelievable schedule… I go home only to take a bath and get some extra clothes and then i’m off to work again! Though it’s a choice i still feel the need to breathe.
My schedule was changed from evening shift to morning shift which starts at 6. For people who work in a call center, this shift is good enough because it’s not to early and not late enough to be caught in traffic. But for me, i don’t like this schedule at some point… because i hate travelling early in the morning especially if it’s dark. Ever since i got robbed in the bus a few months ago i never felt comfortable walking outside when it’s dark.
Sometimes i feel that i need air to breathe because i have been a worrier… i’ve been paranoid about almost everything… and the scariest part is that i’m nurturing a very dangerous pet insde me… i can feel the negativity growing day by day because of the unfortunate things that happened to my life.
I am scared, yes it’s true… somehow if you know me so well you’ll be surprised… unlikely right? True enough… the strength and conviction inside is slowly tearing apart, but the faith is still there. Funny that one event of our lives can make us snap… just like what’s happening to me.
That traumatic experience changed my entire life… it restricted me to do stuff that i usually do, although it made me aware that yes this is not a safe world to live in, it still caused me so much pain and apprehensions… and not only that, even the heartaches and bitterness i have are adding to my worries.
I need to get back the peace of mind that was stolen from me. I need air to breathe… really!
