barely breathing
It took me along time to write something here again. I have been trying to face life and been trying to figure out what was it that I truly want… what is it that is missing in my life? Is there something that is missing or this is just brought by being not satisfied and continuous search for nothing at all. Being human we tend to be not satisfied with what we have, I admit to that sin. Probably, this is what I’m going through right now.
Every night I ask myself what is it that I truly want? To be in love again? To love someone and be loved in return? but love has come and gone my way and nothing has change. I can feel I’m barely breathing… tired of thinking of something that shouldn’t be a cause of worry after all.
Is it really like that or am I just in denial? That I was there… about to wish that he was mine, I was in… so deep. But what now? I am nothing… taken for granted and forlorn. Am I just in denial because my pride couldn’t accept the fact that I will fall in love with someone whom I never thought would hurt me in the most crucial and unexpectable way!?
Probably it’s like that! Whew… I’m so tired of thinking… now I am barely breathing!
