Archive for April, 2006

Mistress Malice by: Viesta Barker

Friday, April 14th, 2006

Mistress I hear you want to talk,
about the man, your man, not mine,
do not concieve, or believe I am his,
I hear your hurt, i hear your voice, now
take the time, to perceive mine,

What I am to him and nothing more,
is his discomfort of you to even some score,
I am his change in mid-stream, I am his inception
of what he was, I am ease, I am his whore,
I am the dip stick for his transmisson,
for his gears have been stripped,
he comes to me to talk of you, I am his transition,
I am the phone call waiting late into the evening.
For a moment, a day here and there, I pause,
for I do fool myself, that I could be you he’s leaving,
only to return to you, for I am his secret, his lost desire,
I am year in his life, while you find you are grieving,
I am the memory that will go with him in old age,
for now I am the need, the greed, on which he feeds,
You were the embrace, I became the lace, the stage,
His senses will return, and with me, it will end,
forgive him for what he does, he did not leave you for me,
He is just a man, a lost soul, I am his last and final sin~

S A C R I F I C E

Monday, April 10th, 2006

SadnessThe intensity of what I feel for him is killing me. Whenever I see his pain, I feel hurt as well. What’s worst is that I feel double the pain… coz I can’t do anything about it. Sometimes I want to be selfish and tell him, why don’t you just leave and be with me.

And you know what… I’m kinda sick and tired of this situation. Again, for the nth time, why do I have to share. I thought life is giving me a fresh start… but it’s like a piece of used paper ready to be recycled… but yes it is crumpled and needs tough ironing.

Imagine, the pain we are both going through… will this be the path I will be headed to for the rest of my life?

But yes… for the heck of it, I sit here alone… lurking behind my shadow, hiding the tears so he can’t see it. If he did see me cry, what strength can he get from me? But each day he holds my hand and ask for strength, I lose mine. Slowly I’m dying inside.

Until when can I hold my breath? Until when can I stand this pain? Eventually, I know I will feel so drained… I can feel my soul slowly drifting away. Until when do I have to sacrifice… just so that I can hold on to him?

It’s killing me.

Bored

Monday, April 10th, 2006

1.CURRENT MOOD?
~ irritated

2. Cell phone service provider:
~ globe

3. HAVE YOU TRIED & DO YOU THINK LONG
DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK FOR
YOU?
~ yes… it did work out… somehow… virtually! =)

4. ARE YOU AN EMOTIONAL PERSON?
~ definitely!

5. YOU BELIEVE IN BESTFRIENDs?
~ i do.

6. EVER FELT SO JEALOUS?
~ yeah… exactly what i’m feeling right now… it’s slowly killing me!

7. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU DID?
~ wait for someone sa starbucks.

8. WHO IS NEXT TO YOU?
~ Cookie.

9. HOW’S THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
~ overly hot!!!

10.11- FORGET IT..
~ ——

12. LOST A FRIENDSHIP OVER SOMETHING
STUPID?
~ yeah…

13. BEEN REALLY DEPRESSED BEFORE?
~ ummm… like right now?!

14. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
~ 7:55am to be exact

15.WHAT PICTURE DO YOU SEE FIRST
WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
~ my NU Rock Awards picture.

16. WHO DO YOU CONSIDER YOUR
CLOSEST FRIEND?
~ tintin, joanne, karen, ebs, candee, kimmy, cookie, chase, gem and biloy

17. WHAT’S THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF
WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
~ c jomz

18. DO YOU HATE ANYONE RIGHT NOW?
~ ask gem and biloy…

19. WHAT iS/ARE YOUR FAVOURITE
COLOUR/s?
~ black and pink

20. MISS SOMEONE?
~ marvin!!!

21. LIKE TO WALK UNDER THE RAIN?
~ certainly!

22. SLEEP WITH/WITHOUT CLOTHES ON?
~ secret….

23. LIKE SOMEONE?
~ like is an understatement.

24. THEY KNOW?
~ yes he does.

25. THINK YOU’RE ATTRACTIVE?
~ well….

26. WANT TO MARRY?
~ i hope i could…

27. WITH WHOM?
~ hindi yta pwede e…

28. ARE YOU A GOOD STUDENT?
~ yes i was

29. WHERE ARE YOU BY THE WAY?
~ sa office… as usual.

30. ARE YOU INVOLVED IN SPORTS?
~ not right now.

31. BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
~ yes.

32. THINK DREAMS EVENTUALLY COME TRUE?
~ if that’s true i wish i could choose w/c dream!

33. FAVOURITE THING TO DO?
~ mag-monitor ng calls at i-PEG cla!!!

34. FAVE PERSON?
~ si Jomz prin.

35. FAVE FEATURE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
~ nose… dimples kung meron.

37. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE
PHONE?
~ si Jeff.

38. LOUD OR SOFT MUSIC?
~ LOUD!!!

39. NIGHT OR DAY?
~ night

40. NUMBER OF PILLOWS ON YOUR BED?
~ 4

41. WHAT’RE YOU GONNA DO TOMORROW?
~ mag- PEG prin… hopefully I could start coaching

42. WHAT’S YOUR BEDTIME?
~ grabe… what’s BEDTIME? do I get a lot of that?

43. WHO DO YOU TALK TO THE MOST ONLINE?
~ si "razorbek"

44. WHAT DO YOU HATE MOST?
~ my old school mobile phone

45. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT
NOW?
~e di calls ng mga agents…=P