Blogging keeps me sane.
I’m at work today, practically doing nothing, although I have lots of things to do, I can’t bring myself back to working mode. These past few days, I don’t feel motivated at all. Probably because of the repetitive stuff that I do each day plus I’m in the morning shift which is really hard because I’d have to wake up early and go through all the trouble of commuting and of course rush hour.
The only thing that’s keeping me sane these days, is blogging, some friends and our fun conversation and of course Gerald. It feels like I’m not growing and learning from what I do, not to mention the fact that I’m not getting a satifactory pay. Imagine every cut-off, you’d have to dispute the days you were deducted for, because of some negligent people who did not mark your attendance properly when you had your APPROVED vacation leave or sick leave! CRAP! On top of that let’s include the consistent and I guess non-curable "irrate agents" that you’d have to constantly coach and to make things worst, they don’t appreciate your help and would think that what you’re doing is non-sense. Let us not forget the ever frustrating campaign for EOP (English Only Policy). Does anyone religiously follow this anyway?
These things that would just grab me by the soul and drag me around is keeping me from performing well at work. Don’t get me wrong, I love my job and ever since I got here I realized that training career is my passion. But the processes that we have is not that organized, it’s caging me and my desire to learn and I want to break out.
Forgive me for the ranting. I know I have a very cool job. I know these days it’s hard to find a good job and I don’t have the right to make a mountain out of a molehill. But still I am frustrated, but why distress myself with it?
So… as we speak… I’ll just keep on blogging.
