The Bitch’s Cradle I

Today you are exactly 24 weeks old, 6 months to be exact! I can’t imagine how hard it is to be inside a swollen tummy! =) Whenever I feel you kick, I really feel that you want to get out and see your mommy and daddy. Like you, we are so excited! But of course we don’t want you to come out ahead of time for it will be bad for you. A few more months to wait and soon, you’ll see the beauty of this world.

I really hope that you’ll see the beauty of it. For some people are having a hard time seeing the color of life. But I guarantee you, we will help you see it.

As a mom, I have so many apprehensions. But mommy has a strong faith. Life outside mommy’s tummy is tough, but we will help you get through it. I can’t promise you all the leisure in life, for I don’t want you to grow like a spoiled brat. As you grow, I want you to learn that you can’t have everything you want. But if you want something really bad you have to earn it.

I will protect you from every danger that might come your way, but I will still let you walk freely as you grow. I will let you choose and make decisions, but I’ll be here to give suggestions. I want you to learn that not everything you think is right will do you good. Sometimes our decisions will hurt us. Sometimes we falter and it is hard to get up. But don’t worry, mommy’s gonna help you stand and walk upright.

As you grow, I want you to emulate your father. He is a person of laughter and strength. I’ve never seen him distressed with worries. He may not be religious, but he has faith. He is a person of love and he says it, more importantly… he shows it.

Never be afraid to show that you love someone. Especially to us, your parents. I want you to grow in a family filled with love and affection. That way, you will never feel that you lack that loving feeling and in the future you will not end up searching and loving the wrong person.

I will teach you to love music. Music livens up our soul, it will make you more beautiful.

I will teach you to eat vegetables and fruits, you need that so you won’t have colds like me.

I will teach you to write poems and short stories. Writing can be an outlet of our emotions. You can make your dreams come to reality when you write a story.

We will play outdoor games instead of video games. This will enhance your motor skills, endurance and body coordination. You will gain many friends and you will learn trust, confidence and cooperation.

I will let you read a good book.  The bible is one book I will never fail to read for you before you go to sleep, but I’ll also let you read a book that will challenge your gray matter.

I have so many things to teach you, so many things I want you to experience and I really pray that you’ll grow up as good person. I won’t dream for you for I know you will have your own. I’ll just be here to help you reach that dream. My only wish is that you’ll enjoy life and when you grow old no matter how tough life is, you are strong and able to do the right thing.

To you…my baby, I pray that you’ll be a person of love, friendship and faith.

A person of integrity and respect.

A person able to live life in its true colors.

Loves you so much,

Mommy =)

It’s been almost 3 months since Gerald and I got married. We went through a lot! The pressure and preparation of civil and church wedding isn’t a joke but we made it. I can’t contain the happiness inside me. Everytime I see his face in the morning is such glory, and when he feels our baby kick, that is the most wonderful feeling I’ve ever felt.

For the past years of my life I was nothing but a woman in distress. I was longing for love and I was hardly searching for it, that I ended up hurting others and myself. I was not eager to wait yet I was too numb to feel the pain.

But the painstaking journey is over. Each day is perfect for I wake up with the sweetest kiss I’ve ever tasted. I embrace the day with the warmest hug that ever locked my body. Inside me is the greatest gift every woman would ask for.

I thank God for His endless forgiveness. I thank God for giving me another chance. I thank God for giving me life. Two new lives that make me whole. Gerald and our soon to be born baby.

I am complete… fulfilled… words are not enough to describe how happy I am now.